Amanda is alone

I need you to be in my life!!!! I am very sad about my mom's passing after 2 years. I feel very alone. I miss her so much!!!! She is my best friend. Why did you take her from me? I don't really have other friends and I don't want any. I want my mom back!!! I haven't been going to Church for the past month-- I am sorry, but I am very upset and mad. I don't know if this is normal- but I just want to be alone. I need someone to talk to because I am very suicidal and just want to be with my mom. Please send someone to help me. I need you more than anything right now.